Coz its not a secret. I live with it everyday… Force myself to deal with it coz I cant keep trying to run away from it.
It’s like I’m still trying to protect him. He shouldn’t be protected from that.

Sure. At some point I need to get past it, and realize that its in the past, but…I cant stop thinking… When its wrong its wrong…no matter how drunk you are. You just dont do that.
hmmm. something to ponder at least

Who am I to say whats wrong or whats right. all I know is what I do myself, and am the only judge  for what I do and who I am. If you dont like it? Well. Dont copy me. Dont use me as an example and dont pretend you think I’m awesome.

This is something I said on Facebook a little while ago. Thought I’d add it here too.

just had a very interesting realization. and. u know what? doesnt matter how drunk i get…i still know what im doing and what is right and what is wrong. theres no reason to try drink myself off/under the table to see if the moral line blurs…coz i know it wont. theres some things you just dont do if you have morals…u know? like seriously. glad i realized that. a very good step.

Hello World!

My name is Allie. So far in my life, I’ve let other people run it…or at the very least tell me what I should be doing.

This is part of my stand to take back my life. I want to be in control again. I’m relearning so many new things about myself and whats incredibly cool is that I like the person I am right now. I havent done anything wrong and I’m growing as a person, and accepting and acknowledging who I was, and whats affected me in the past.

This is a blog for my realizations as I move on with my life, learn who I am and who I want to be.

Love always,

Allie